Today, I'm turning 25.

Being alive for the whole 25 years, I've never imagined that life would be so hard I could hardly breathe — been through a crazy rollercoaster year I have to admit.

I learned that the biggest thing in your life apparently meant nothing in someone else's life. That your achievements and your struggles aren't even important to them. That your closest friends wouldn't always cherish your friendship they could gossiping about you behind your back, throwing the dirt with your name. That the person you love the most, could be the same person you hurt the deepest — and someone who's been going through the hardest time with you, he might not able to see your worth. That you shouldn't expect anyone to meet your expectations just because you've done too much efforts for their happiness — no matter how far you've fought, the simplest thing would always seem so hard if they're not willing to do it for you. 

I learned that whatever people think about me, I better just let them be. Because my value doesn't decrease based on someone's inability to see my worth. Because I finally came to the realization that I no longer need their validations to keep myself alive.

So, Happy Birthday, dear myself..

And to all people in my life, I wanna say thank you. Thank you for letting me grow up in my way, but each of you have been helping me to become who I am today. I'm not going to say that I don't go by or change my attitude based on what people say, because at some points, I do. But I'm not giving you guys the power to break me down. Never.